I finally got to sleep in today. I might not be going to school, but I’ve been waking up at 8am every day and I finally got to sleep until 10am. Thank God.
It was a very productive day, if I do say so. I got some homework done and finally filmed my lookbook that I’ve been wanting to do for months now. It isn’t the best and I know that I have a lot of improving to do but I am really proud of myself. I’ve come a long way in terms of stepping out of my comfort zone since my anxiety incident. It’s al
l about baby steps and short term goals. I also avoided being in my room, which I accomplished and it felt so good. Although I didn’t go out it felt nice not having that trapped feeling in my gut. Back to the small baby steps, this was apart of it.
Tomorrow is my boyfriends birthday and to be completely honest I can sometimes get jealous with the way girls throw themselves at my boy to say happy birthday. I wouldn’t mind a “happy birthday”, but why throw yourself. I ask God to give me strength and to just avoid reacting to these problems. I pray that tomorrow be an amazing day filled with smiles and beauty.
I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
– Philippians 4:13